Life today... staying postitve.....

wow...well today I had the first bad review on my cakes... It comes at a time when I feel that I am done with cakes....whether I am done for a few weeks or if this was just a season of my life...I am unsure...however with regards to the bad cake...I was told it was soooooo dry people couldnt eat it...why? I am still figuring out.....however I have really tried to be positive about the situation...for instance in 1 out of 20 cakes went bad....thats actually not a bad ratio even though my expectation is 0 out of 20!! Anyhow live and learn!
But as to the whole seasonal thing...maybe cakes was just a way of getting us through a trying time financially..we lived on my the $$ from my cakes!
Whats next...I have nothing booked.....even my all me appointments I have been going to havent, nothing has come from them.

Is this season closed? I need to know, because I have a bridal show in November. So I am waiting...maybe this is a time to relax....breathe, I have been so consumed with cakes ...I think I have become burnt out!!
I just dont know.....
Financially we have been so tight and that in it self is quite stressful!!
One good thing is that my house is becoming cleaner and more organized...especially as all the children are in school all day!! I am loving the quiet! Though today I can get a bit bored!
My mind seems to go non stop..... I so need to breathe, relax and let go.....

So thats an update on the life I live today!

life...

Its funny how life goes on and we get so busy, we get sidetracked, we come we go....and we forget to blog ..... I think its facebook...I spend so much time on Facebook reading what everyone else it doing, but I miss blogging.....

We have been so busy, alot of change and lots of fun!!

Last time I blog I was just starting work at a clothing store here in Westbank! I worked 4 shifts.... The 2nd day I started I got a call to make a 60 birthday cake,I had my website up for a few weeks...so the next evening I went to Micheals to buy the supplies need to make this cake. As we drove home I sort of said to myself, maybe I am not to work but do cakes and if there is another request for a cake when I get home maybe that will be a sign..... I wasnt really serious because I didnt think that there would be a request....I was wrong there was a request for a wedding cake... I already had 2 booked for the summer. I put it behind me....I did book another wedding cake though. Anyhow as I was working the next a two shifts it was occuring to me that it was going to cost me about $800.00 for child care during the summer ...I would only be making maybe $800.00 a month..it didnt add up....
So after talking with Trev we decided that I wouldnt work and just focus on cakes and parties.... the week I stop working I booked a party and 2 more cakes.....

The job was good though and I believe that it was God's way of setting me free from the obligations I had so that I could focus on the kids, the house, and the cakes N Parties.

Well now we are almost in to August....I had 2 parties in May, 1 wedding cake and 1 party in June, 6 cakes in July and 9 cakes in August....crazy..but so fun!!

I love making cakes....let me rephrase that ..I love decorating cakes!! Baking cakes is just something I have to do!! I love doing something ...and I feel like I come alive when I do it!

I am so thankful for God... for my businees, for the sucess of this business, and everytime I do a cake I am dependent on Him to match the colors of the cake with the wedding or party.....everytime is has matched perfectly!

I am also thankful to Trevor who is my number 1 fan and supporter.....he is amazing...I am so blessed by him...

I am so thankful for my children, who love to help...who put up with me , and love to do dishes!! They are so encouraging ....

I am so thankful for my parents, who make us dinner on the days that I am so busy with decorating and baking! They also take care of the children...take them to the beach etc....

I am so thankful for my new friends who have jumped on the band wagon to help with thoughts, ideas, or hands on help!

I am so blessed! Thanks Jesus!

I am thankful for my house....its not a perfect house...but it home!

Father thanks for all that you have given us....for providing our needs, for giving us a home, keeping us safe, just for everything.......I thank you!

Well thats my story in a nut shell to update you all......

be blessed!

Change

Life is all about change!


"if we don't change, we don't grow. If we don't grow, we aren't really living!"

Change is good.... sometimes its a bit unnerving too.

For instance on Monday I start a job where I have to be at the store at 9:30 am and work on my feet for 8 hours. I can 't even remember when the last time I had to be at a job at a certain time was on a regular basis!

Change.. .it means being more organized , having lunches made for everyone, having dinner planned....I know for a lot of people this is a normal day, but for us this is a something we will have to get use to.

Change ..it will be good!

I am actually really excited about the job, its something that kinda fell into my lap, and I know its God who is orchestrating this change.

The timing is funny, but it is so good to know that I trust the Conductor of my life.
We go wih the flow..where he guides, where he sends, it's all for a bigger picture.

God is good...I love having hope and someone to trust in.....

This month has been a month of change, of memories, of fun....
I loved celebrating my 10 Anniversary...of being married to the most amazing man....who shows unconditional love all the time, who is a hard worker, who loves his children, and who is so much fun!!
I am so blessed...I love you Trev,.....thanks for the most amazing 10 years and I am looking forward to the next 100 years with you by my side!

Be blessed today!!

My life isnt really mine....

Yep a another revelation is beginning to develop....maybe a light is turning on.....

My life is not mine to live

I am nothing on my own
The world does not revolve around me, there's a bigger picture!!

I need Jesus everyday
Do you know he made US for a purpose?
Do you know that he has a plan...we dont always know what it is, or we might have a glimpse, however we have to walk in faith, being positive, standing on His words

For I know the plans I have for you...Jeremiah 29
Everything works together for good....

I need Jesus to be real to me everyday! To give opportunity to listen to what HE is saying for today

Lord what do you require of me today?

Everything I have is yours, My timings are in your hands, our businesses are yours
our home is yours,

I am nothing, I have nothing with out YOU!

Father thank you for your unconditional love and grace, your provision, your mercy

I love you Lord, thank you for taking my life and giving it purpose!

Be Blessed!

Leaving the old and going for the new

We have been so busy, with company etc.....yesterday I fell asleep on the couch in the afternoon for almost 2 hours. Yesterday I also stressed about $$$, Yesterday I had a great evening just me and Trev talking about life and things...it was so refreshing to just be us.

SO today I have really been thinking....since we have moved here to Westbank, it is like we still had our toes in Coquitlam, not totally letting go, but today I have realized that we have to let go of the old and grasp, hang on to the new....let go of yesterday and focus on today looking with hope at tomorrow.

This doesn't mean to forget all your friends from the past, but to not focus on what was and a focus on where we are now and what will be.

So today I thank GOD for the past 5 years in Coquitlam, I learn't a lot, built good friendships, worked on my character, have good memories....

Today I am focusing on today, here us in Westbank. I am turning the page, to start a new fresh chapter.

Father thank you for bringing us to Westbank, thank you for the people we are meeting here. Thank you for our home, Trev's job, our vehicles, our childrens schools, etc
Father thank you for your blessing, your favor, your provision.
Thank you that you already have a plan on paying the bills this month, It is all in your hands.

Father I love you and today I am finally ready to start the new chapter of our story.

Thank you Lord for all my friends here and and where ever they are. Bless them!!


Be Blessed!!

Good days and Not so good days

Its funny how we have good days and not so good days..... some days I am so content, so excited, so at peace, other day I am freaking out, complaining, etc.

Why?

Life I guess, but I am coming to realize that it doesnt have to be like that, it is all about how we let our mind and the negative thoughts run and get bigger, until our perspective is blown out of proportion!!

So Sunday we went to church and I had a vision during worship of A person standing under a large stick or piece of plywood. The person was just dried up, wilting, feeling overwelmed and wondering what happened to God, did he leave ? Then I saw water/rain falling but because the wood was so thick it wasnt getting through to the person underneath the wood. Then I saw God snap the wood into two and the water gushed over the person, giving them life, soaking them....

So I shared this vision to the church, then when I sat down I realized that the vision was for me and that I was dried up and wilting. So I stood up and sureenderd everything to the Lord.... realized I havent been thankful fopr what God has done and has given us. I have just complained and been so negative,,,looking at what I dont have rather then what I do have. I asked God to forgive me for my complaints .... I surrendered everything to God.

Now the funny part is after worship the Pastor got up and what did he start talking about......being thankful!!! Do you think God was trying to get my attention?!!!!!

So Monday I woke up...it was so nice not to have to rush the kids off to school!!
I sat down and just thanked God for everything, even our debt.....and placing everything work, debt, family etc into his hands!!

That afternoon, we got a call for our first home inspection with JDS. It was such an encouraging blessing...and I am so thankful to God for that as well as knowing that HE takes care of us.

Thank you Lord for all that you are, all the you do, fo ryour love, your grace, your mercy,
This Easter I thank you for dieing for me. For rising again after 3 days to give us a freedom we will never be fully able to understand. Thank you for your freedom!

I love you Lord!!


Be Blessed today
and I wish you a very Happy Thankful Easter!!

What the hell.....

Sometimes I just want to say...What the hell are we doing?

What is uncondtional Love?

This is a question I have really been thinking about lately. What is unconditional Love? What does it mean to you? Have you ever been unconditionally loved? What does that look like?
One example of unconditional love.... is a mother who is devestated that their son is in jail for being accused of sexually abusing their daughter, the mother is devestated by the act, but loves her son no matter what, because she believes in him, she trust God with him, she doesn,t give up hope.

Another example is a man whose ex girlfriend gets pregnant with another person's baby, but yet loves her so much he marries her and raises and loves the baby as his own.

Another example is when I was drunk, sleeping around, alienated myself from God and Christians, yet a christian friend comes and hangs out, loves me for where I am, joins me in my messiness, not judging, but loving...saying I don't agree with your lifestyle, but I Love you... I believe in you.

I have had the honor to see so many people I know walk in unconditional love and forgiveness....

The greatest example is Jesus.....he loves us so much he died a horrific death so that we can be free, he clothes us with a holy mantle and he sees us perfect in our messiness and brokenness... he loves us so much, he forgives us 70X7, He believes in us...He might not agree with the choices we are making, we might even break his heart, but one thing that is for sure is He never gives up on us, He loves us unconditionally, even more then we can fathom...it mind blowing to dwell in that kind of love.

Do we love unconditionally? Most of love ...but we have either unspoken or spoken expectations.... we have conditions...I love you , but....
I love you , but you have to do this, or be like this. We put up conditions sometimes without knowing it, sometimes we do it cuz we dont know any better.

This is when we need a revelation of how much God loves us...exactly where we are..in our brokenness, in our mess.

God reveal to us how much you love us..... for with out your revelation we will never be able to love as you love us.

Were would we be with out that love? If we dont know God's love, if we dont believe that he Loves us....then wow how miserable would our lives be...there would be no hope.

Unconditional love is a the foundation the basis to our relationship and walk with God

I pray that if you do not truly believe that God loves you exactly as you are, broken, bruised, a mess, I pray you find the reality soon....

When we know some one loves us unconditionally, it not only gives us hope, it gives us a sence of belonging...which is what we all desire.... to be loved and accepted!! With no expectations, no conditions...just as we are.

We were at a youth conference last weekend and the speaker was talking about the Good Samaritan and how the man was broken, covered in dirty blood, a mess.
And the first 2 guys who walked around the dirty broken man....they had their own reasons why they couldn't get dirty...whether it was because they didn't know what to do, or maybe they felt that if they got to close they would be contaminated, perhaps they were so caught up in what they thought was a good religious lifestyle they forgot about being human.

Whatever the reason they never stopped to help, to love, to show God's unconditional love and grace.
Then came the Good Samaritan he stop got down to the broke man's level, he got blood on his hands, he got dirty, he carried the broken man to safety, he did what it took to love unconditionally...he never condemned the man for being broken, but he loved the man in his brokenness!

My desire is to be the Good Samaritan, to reach out and show God's love and Grace for where people are at.

God has shown me unconditional love, I have caught a small glimpse of it and I want to show it to others to all I come into contact with.... I will not judge, I will not condemn, I will love as Jesus loves, I will forgive as Jesus forgives, I will be Jesus with arms and flesh and then HE can flow through me.

This is my life's purpose to love unconditionally as I am loved.

This is my prayer!

Be Blessed!

Life is good!!!

Life is good...I am so blessed by my husband, my children , my home.....

We are loving being here in Westbank! It feels so natural and so at home!! The sun is amazing!
I've started going to the gym..... the first day I worked out for over an hour, and rather then being sore, my body was exhausted! Today I went and just did cardio for 2o minutes. Tomorrow I am going again, but his time I have a friend coming with me. This is the first time I will have a workout partner that is not Trevor. I am excited though and its amazing how much better I feel during the day!
I am still getting use to getting up at 6 am. Its good for me!!
So overall I feel very blessed..we are getting to know people, we are getting paychecks that cover the bills, and we are enjoying the family!!!

The hardest part is church...we just haven't felt like going to church....We've been invited to an evangelical church here in Westbank...I dont know.... Maybe ....

The thing I love the most is that God is still here with us even though we dont go to church. Today all I wanted to do was sing along with Chris Tomlin and it was so wow....

Thank you Lord for taking care of all our needs, for keeping us all safe, and for all that you do for us, for loving us, for your grace, your wisdom...

I really need Gods grace with my children and for wisdom on how to deal with them the best way.

I need you Lord
I love you Lord

Be Blessed!!

homesick..... and freedom

SO the last couple of days I have been feeling homesick...... homesick for our old house, the youth, our friends, the money Trev made.....I have to keep on top of my thoughts and remember that God called us here to Westbank and to stand firm.... We knew when we moved here that financially we would be tight, it just has been a bigger adjustment then I anticipated.

We moved knowing with out a doubt that God said go....though somedays when the storm rages, its a fight to keep my eyes on Jesus. All my preaching to you and myself regarding taking control of my thoughts etc..is having to be really practiced.

Anyhow all this to say..... that I miss my friends.....I miss our old house (not the big one, the one we owned), however I do miss the big bath from the huge house!!! I miss shopping, just because, I miss doing things with out thinking about the cost of $$$.

I have been working on our brochure for inspections and been using the pictures from our renovations... it was so beautiful.....so needless to say I miss it.

Its okay to miss it, to be honest but I just need to rise above it.... so thats where I am..... we really need a miracle with our finances ... Lord I know that where you call you provide. . and I am believing that you are going to set us free.... Father we ask for favor, with inspections.... let it take off Lord..... open the doors , set us free

I love you Lord and I trust you to provide for our every need and desires.
Thank you for taking care of us..... thank you for you protection, your freedom, your grace, and your love!

Thank you for your blessing you have pour out on us, thank you for our house, our cars, our amazing family you have given us... Wow you are amazing!!

Being Thankful is an amazing way to come up higher, to free our minds, to worship the Lord with gladness in the struggles.

Be Blessed!!

relax...

Wow...spring...equals new growth, time to get out of winter ruts and get into new routines and try new things....
The weather outside is so beautiful and sunny, warm...I love not having to wear a big heavy jacket!!

I love watching the snow melt away as I anticipate what our new garden looks like!! If it is anything like the bit of garden I see now..I have alot of work setout for me!!

So my new thing I am trying....is possible a job.....full time.... wow if I get it that will be amazing...and it will be definitely a change.

But untill I get it , which I might not, I am just relaxing, enjoying life... I made bread from scratch, I've gardened (where the snow has melted) I have danced, baked, painted, I ve enjoyed every minute.

So I am also trying to learn to be more positive and encouraging... in every moment..but what a fight with my thoughts to be this way.....my thoughts want to go neagitive but I choose to be positive.

I watched Evan Almighty the other night and one of the things the character God says "if you pray for patience do you think God automatically gives you patience or does he give you th opportunity to have patience"
How true...sometimes we pray and we totally expect a instance answer, like a magic wan di s waved and "poof" we have patience.... wouldn't that save alot of hassele...yet is we dont learn what we ask for then we will take it for granted. So in the movie the mom (wife of Evan) prayed that their family would be closer together. She almost missed the opportunity to do that, to learn to be closer together, to act upon it!

It's like a light went on....it clicked.... what opportunities are we missing that we have asked for?

...I know I am more aware to look for the opportunities and if God does do the magice "poof" it is most likely because I needed it really bad!!!

Be blessed!!

New Lifestyles and such....

Wow with a move so big and so good, has come a new lifestyle change. Its strange, but so good!

My days are less busy, less stressed, and still fun!!
The lastest thing I have started doing in my daily routine is working out.....however not just any working out, but worshiping as well.... I have been dancing for 20 - 30 minutes to worship music...wow I feel so refreshed all day. I work out a sweat....which I have never done before and I love it!!!

The first time I did it I felt really awkward, but then I prayed "Lord free me to dance" and I danced ....it is so fun, so invigorating, and so amazing. I have been so blessed!!

What else is new.....well I am looking for a job....that will defiantly be a change!
This whole move has been one of faith..knowing that God brought us here.....why and what purpose is still unknown, however we know with out a doubt it was the best thing to do.

Knowing this we continue to stand on it saying God you have to provide..... and so far he has...He is so faithful!!

We are loving it here and look forward to what God has in store for us!!

New Year...New Beginnings 2008

The number 8 means "new beginnings" ! Wow that is true this 2008......with a quick move to Westbank, BC at the beginning of January.
What a lifestyle change...... Life is quiet, more relaxing, I sleep more....I sleep better,
This move was a total step of faith.... believing that God called us and called us quickly..... there was so much confirmation, scriptures, people, ..... we knew with out a doubt that we were to go to Kelowna.. So here we are.

Its funny because after alot of seeking and asking God for direction, vision, and getting it... now we are here and settled the hardest part is making the time to keep seeking Him.

The biggest thing we have felt to do here is just to "Be" .... relax, slow down, breathe.... God's not in a hurry..... and most importantly to Trust Him.

There's those amazing words again... Trust....

This was a huge step of faith financially... we made good money in Vancouver..... had huge expenses, but made god money....here money is a step of faith believing that God said go....and knowing that where He sends He provides!!

Trust!!!

In all areas of our lives.... family , financially, physically, spiritually, in everything!! trust... rely on, depend on....


At church yesterday the pastor said.... that reason was the number one enemy of faith...... our own human thoughts, which we can either keep contained and under control or they can be wild and overwhelming, they reason us out of what God is saying or has said.
They can crush us if we arent taking control of our thoughts and standing firmly planted on what God is saying or has said He will do.

I am planted on the rock.....I have control over my thoughts and I lay them down and replace them with God's thoughts!

No wavering in the sand, but Firm on the Rock!


Be blessed!