Leaving the old and going for the new

We have been so busy, with company etc.....yesterday I fell asleep on the couch in the afternoon for almost 2 hours. Yesterday I also stressed about $$$, Yesterday I had a great evening just me and Trev talking about life and things...it was so refreshing to just be us.

SO today I have really been thinking....since we have moved here to Westbank, it is like we still had our toes in Coquitlam, not totally letting go, but today I have realized that we have to let go of the old and grasp, hang on to the new....let go of yesterday and focus on today looking with hope at tomorrow.

This doesn't mean to forget all your friends from the past, but to not focus on what was and a focus on where we are now and what will be.

So today I thank GOD for the past 5 years in Coquitlam, I learn't a lot, built good friendships, worked on my character, have good memories....

Today I am focusing on today, here us in Westbank. I am turning the page, to start a new fresh chapter.

Father thank you for bringing us to Westbank, thank you for the people we are meeting here. Thank you for our home, Trev's job, our vehicles, our childrens schools, etc
Father thank you for your blessing, your favor, your provision.
Thank you that you already have a plan on paying the bills this month, It is all in your hands.

Father I love you and today I am finally ready to start the new chapter of our story.

Thank you Lord for all my friends here and and where ever they are. Bless them!!


Be Blessed!!

Good days and Not so good days

Its funny how we have good days and not so good days..... some days I am so content, so excited, so at peace, other day I am freaking out, complaining, etc.

Why?

Life I guess, but I am coming to realize that it doesnt have to be like that, it is all about how we let our mind and the negative thoughts run and get bigger, until our perspective is blown out of proportion!!

So Sunday we went to church and I had a vision during worship of A person standing under a large stick or piece of plywood. The person was just dried up, wilting, feeling overwelmed and wondering what happened to God, did he leave ? Then I saw water/rain falling but because the wood was so thick it wasnt getting through to the person underneath the wood. Then I saw God snap the wood into two and the water gushed over the person, giving them life, soaking them....

So I shared this vision to the church, then when I sat down I realized that the vision was for me and that I was dried up and wilting. So I stood up and sureenderd everything to the Lord.... realized I havent been thankful fopr what God has done and has given us. I have just complained and been so negative,,,looking at what I dont have rather then what I do have. I asked God to forgive me for my complaints .... I surrendered everything to God.

Now the funny part is after worship the Pastor got up and what did he start talking about......being thankful!!! Do you think God was trying to get my attention?!!!!!

So Monday I woke up...it was so nice not to have to rush the kids off to school!!
I sat down and just thanked God for everything, even our debt.....and placing everything work, debt, family etc into his hands!!

That afternoon, we got a call for our first home inspection with JDS. It was such an encouraging blessing...and I am so thankful to God for that as well as knowing that HE takes care of us.

Thank you Lord for all that you are, all the you do, fo ryour love, your grace, your mercy,
This Easter I thank you for dieing for me. For rising again after 3 days to give us a freedom we will never be fully able to understand. Thank you for your freedom!

I love you Lord!!


Be Blessed today
and I wish you a very Happy Thankful Easter!!

What the hell.....

Sometimes I just want to say...What the hell are we doing?

What is uncondtional Love?

This is a question I have really been thinking about lately. What is unconditional Love? What does it mean to you? Have you ever been unconditionally loved? What does that look like?
One example of unconditional love.... is a mother who is devestated that their son is in jail for being accused of sexually abusing their daughter, the mother is devestated by the act, but loves her son no matter what, because she believes in him, she trust God with him, she doesn,t give up hope.

Another example is a man whose ex girlfriend gets pregnant with another person's baby, but yet loves her so much he marries her and raises and loves the baby as his own.

Another example is when I was drunk, sleeping around, alienated myself from God and Christians, yet a christian friend comes and hangs out, loves me for where I am, joins me in my messiness, not judging, but loving...saying I don't agree with your lifestyle, but I Love you... I believe in you.

I have had the honor to see so many people I know walk in unconditional love and forgiveness....

The greatest example is Jesus.....he loves us so much he died a horrific death so that we can be free, he clothes us with a holy mantle and he sees us perfect in our messiness and brokenness... he loves us so much, he forgives us 70X7, He believes in us...He might not agree with the choices we are making, we might even break his heart, but one thing that is for sure is He never gives up on us, He loves us unconditionally, even more then we can fathom...it mind blowing to dwell in that kind of love.

Do we love unconditionally? Most of love ...but we have either unspoken or spoken expectations.... we have conditions...I love you , but....
I love you , but you have to do this, or be like this. We put up conditions sometimes without knowing it, sometimes we do it cuz we dont know any better.

This is when we need a revelation of how much God loves us...exactly where we are..in our brokenness, in our mess.

God reveal to us how much you love us..... for with out your revelation we will never be able to love as you love us.

Were would we be with out that love? If we dont know God's love, if we dont believe that he Loves us....then wow how miserable would our lives be...there would be no hope.

Unconditional love is a the foundation the basis to our relationship and walk with God

I pray that if you do not truly believe that God loves you exactly as you are, broken, bruised, a mess, I pray you find the reality soon....

When we know some one loves us unconditionally, it not only gives us hope, it gives us a sence of belonging...which is what we all desire.... to be loved and accepted!! With no expectations, no conditions...just as we are.

We were at a youth conference last weekend and the speaker was talking about the Good Samaritan and how the man was broken, covered in dirty blood, a mess.
And the first 2 guys who walked around the dirty broken man....they had their own reasons why they couldn't get dirty...whether it was because they didn't know what to do, or maybe they felt that if they got to close they would be contaminated, perhaps they were so caught up in what they thought was a good religious lifestyle they forgot about being human.

Whatever the reason they never stopped to help, to love, to show God's unconditional love and grace.
Then came the Good Samaritan he stop got down to the broke man's level, he got blood on his hands, he got dirty, he carried the broken man to safety, he did what it took to love unconditionally...he never condemned the man for being broken, but he loved the man in his brokenness!

My desire is to be the Good Samaritan, to reach out and show God's love and Grace for where people are at.

God has shown me unconditional love, I have caught a small glimpse of it and I want to show it to others to all I come into contact with.... I will not judge, I will not condemn, I will love as Jesus loves, I will forgive as Jesus forgives, I will be Jesus with arms and flesh and then HE can flow through me.

This is my life's purpose to love unconditionally as I am loved.

This is my prayer!

Be Blessed!

Life is good!!!

Life is good...I am so blessed by my husband, my children , my home.....

We are loving being here in Westbank! It feels so natural and so at home!! The sun is amazing!
I've started going to the gym..... the first day I worked out for over an hour, and rather then being sore, my body was exhausted! Today I went and just did cardio for 2o minutes. Tomorrow I am going again, but his time I have a friend coming with me. This is the first time I will have a workout partner that is not Trevor. I am excited though and its amazing how much better I feel during the day!
I am still getting use to getting up at 6 am. Its good for me!!
So overall I feel very blessed..we are getting to know people, we are getting paychecks that cover the bills, and we are enjoying the family!!!

The hardest part is church...we just haven't felt like going to church....We've been invited to an evangelical church here in Westbank...I dont know.... Maybe ....

The thing I love the most is that God is still here with us even though we dont go to church. Today all I wanted to do was sing along with Chris Tomlin and it was so wow....

Thank you Lord for taking care of all our needs, for keeping us all safe, and for all that you do for us, for loving us, for your grace, your wisdom...

I really need Gods grace with my children and for wisdom on how to deal with them the best way.

I need you Lord
I love you Lord

Be Blessed!!