Vision, goals, purpose = peace

Well I am still on my sabbaitcal! I realized this when I went somewhere that I felt obligated to go and as soon as I got there I was drained of all energy! I said that in my sabbatical that I wouldn't do anything that I felt obligated to do and now I know why!!
So I am on this sabbatical...asking God manty questions. Some I am not sure I want the answers for, but I realized that the biggest thing I am asking God for is vision, purpose, goals. I want clear without a doubt knowing what I am required to do by my Lord! What the hell am I here for? What is my purpose?

Growing up all I wanted to be was a mom and a wife.....that was my goal.....I love it! Maybe that is all I need to focusing on is a my family. My home, having a safe place of peace....security from a world of mess.....

I think that is my purpose at the moment. Yet when I see my house in disray, I feel a mess, I think the children feel a mess. So my new goal as of today is to provide my family a place of peace.

Father I need your peace in me to flow to my family! If I am not at peace then they aren't a peace. Father pour out your peace on us all, especially me!!

More bramblings of some of the thoughts that are in my head....I am really seeking God for answers and guidance. I am tired of being a rollarcoaster of emotions, stresses, etc.

I want to know what God is saying to me without a shadow of a doubt, and know I am not lead by emotions , but by My Father.

Be blessed