homesick..... and freedom

SO the last couple of days I have been feeling homesick...... homesick for our old house, the youth, our friends, the money Trev made.....I have to keep on top of my thoughts and remember that God called us here to Westbank and to stand firm.... We knew when we moved here that financially we would be tight, it just has been a bigger adjustment then I anticipated.

We moved knowing with out a doubt that God said go....though somedays when the storm rages, its a fight to keep my eyes on Jesus. All my preaching to you and myself regarding taking control of my thoughts etc..is having to be really practiced.

Anyhow all this to say..... that I miss my friends.....I miss our old house (not the big one, the one we owned), however I do miss the big bath from the huge house!!! I miss shopping, just because, I miss doing things with out thinking about the cost of $$$.

I have been working on our brochure for inspections and been using the pictures from our renovations... it was so beautiful.....so needless to say I miss it.

Its okay to miss it, to be honest but I just need to rise above it.... so thats where I am..... we really need a miracle with our finances ... Lord I know that where you call you provide. . and I am believing that you are going to set us free.... Father we ask for favor, with inspections.... let it take off Lord..... open the doors , set us free

I love you Lord and I trust you to provide for our every need and desires.
Thank you for taking care of us..... thank you for you protection, your freedom, your grace, and your love!

Thank you for your blessing you have pour out on us, thank you for our house, our cars, our amazing family you have given us... Wow you are amazing!!

Being Thankful is an amazing way to come up higher, to free our minds, to worship the Lord with gladness in the struggles.

Be Blessed!!

relax...

Wow...spring...equals new growth, time to get out of winter ruts and get into new routines and try new things....
The weather outside is so beautiful and sunny, warm...I love not having to wear a big heavy jacket!!

I love watching the snow melt away as I anticipate what our new garden looks like!! If it is anything like the bit of garden I see now..I have alot of work setout for me!!

So my new thing I am trying....is possible a job.....full time.... wow if I get it that will be amazing...and it will be definitely a change.

But untill I get it , which I might not, I am just relaxing, enjoying life... I made bread from scratch, I've gardened (where the snow has melted) I have danced, baked, painted, I ve enjoyed every minute.

So I am also trying to learn to be more positive and encouraging... in every moment..but what a fight with my thoughts to be this way.....my thoughts want to go neagitive but I choose to be positive.

I watched Evan Almighty the other night and one of the things the character God says "if you pray for patience do you think God automatically gives you patience or does he give you th opportunity to have patience"
How true...sometimes we pray and we totally expect a instance answer, like a magic wan di s waved and "poof" we have patience.... wouldn't that save alot of hassele...yet is we dont learn what we ask for then we will take it for granted. So in the movie the mom (wife of Evan) prayed that their family would be closer together. She almost missed the opportunity to do that, to learn to be closer together, to act upon it!

It's like a light went on....it clicked.... what opportunities are we missing that we have asked for?

...I know I am more aware to look for the opportunities and if God does do the magice "poof" it is most likely because I needed it really bad!!!

Be blessed!!

New Lifestyles and such....

Wow with a move so big and so good, has come a new lifestyle change. Its strange, but so good!

My days are less busy, less stressed, and still fun!!
The lastest thing I have started doing in my daily routine is working out.....however not just any working out, but worshiping as well.... I have been dancing for 20 - 30 minutes to worship music...wow I feel so refreshed all day. I work out a sweat....which I have never done before and I love it!!!

The first time I did it I felt really awkward, but then I prayed "Lord free me to dance" and I danced ....it is so fun, so invigorating, and so amazing. I have been so blessed!!

What else is new.....well I am looking for a job....that will defiantly be a change!
This whole move has been one of faith..knowing that God brought us here.....why and what purpose is still unknown, however we know with out a doubt it was the best thing to do.

Knowing this we continue to stand on it saying God you have to provide..... and so far he has...He is so faithful!!

We are loving it here and look forward to what God has in store for us!!

New Year...New Beginnings 2008

The number 8 means "new beginnings" ! Wow that is true this 2008......with a quick move to Westbank, BC at the beginning of January.
What a lifestyle change...... Life is quiet, more relaxing, I sleep more....I sleep better,
This move was a total step of faith.... believing that God called us and called us quickly..... there was so much confirmation, scriptures, people, ..... we knew with out a doubt that we were to go to Kelowna.. So here we are.

Its funny because after alot of seeking and asking God for direction, vision, and getting it... now we are here and settled the hardest part is making the time to keep seeking Him.

The biggest thing we have felt to do here is just to "Be" .... relax, slow down, breathe.... God's not in a hurry..... and most importantly to Trust Him.

There's those amazing words again... Trust....

This was a huge step of faith financially... we made good money in Vancouver..... had huge expenses, but made god money....here money is a step of faith believing that God said go....and knowing that where He sends He provides!!

Trust!!!

In all areas of our lives.... family , financially, physically, spiritually, in everything!! trust... rely on, depend on....


At church yesterday the pastor said.... that reason was the number one enemy of faith...... our own human thoughts, which we can either keep contained and under control or they can be wild and overwhelming, they reason us out of what God is saying or has said.
They can crush us if we arent taking control of our thoughts and standing firmly planted on what God is saying or has said He will do.

I am planted on the rock.....I have control over my thoughts and I lay them down and replace them with God's thoughts!

No wavering in the sand, but Firm on the Rock!


Be blessed!

trusting God without fear

I recently read a book called "Walking barefoot on barbwire" by Cindy Morgan.
It was so good....it is a story type journal of her experience with fear. It wasnt a self help book, but just real stories of her life....Stories that I could relate to.

My eyeopener was that even little things like "what if...we dont have enough money for rent" is a fear. Then at church the other day our pastor was talking about what holds us back from going through the promise land.... and he used "What if" can block us... And if WHAT IF is fear then fear is what blocks us, holds us back, etc.

Why do we live with so much fear....because we do not TRUST, and because we do not trust we cant let go of what we think is control. Honestly...we can't and we don't control anything!! Only God can control us and our lives. DO you trust God, do you believe that he truly takes care of us and the people we love....

Right now I am having to trust God. Our finances are not good right now.....myself, my fear is freaking out...what are we going to do.... I am not doing a very good job trusting...I am trying my hardest to not lose it all together...but what good will that do....it doesn't solve the problem...yet as I am writing this I know that I am so not trusting God....I am just What if ing....

I know that God has a plan and a purpose for us and for you. I know that everything always works together for good... so why am I worried, do I truly believe it.

I do believe it, I CHOOSE to trust in my God, who has ALWAYS taken care of me...sometimes I have had to go through tough times to work on my character...but it is worth it... I also take all my thoughts and give them to God.... What am I thinking...I am postitive, am I dwelling on the negative, the bad, or am I dwelling what is good, like His Peace, joy, Patience, Am I looking through my eyes or am I choosing to come up higher and see the bigger picture.

For example if there is a parade coming and you are standing waiting for the parade to go by, you can only see what is before you, however if you go up higher to the top of the building and look down you can then see what is before you and what is coming!

Are you standing on the bottom only seeing what is before you (looking at the circumstances) or are you up higher (seeing what God sees)

So Father God.. I do trust you...I know that you have a plan, and I wait patiently for you reveal your plan to us. Lord I give up control...it's not even mine to take. Father God I love you , I trust you. Thank you for giving us hope....
Father thank you for seeing the bigger picture....I choose to fully trust you without fear. Knowing you take care of us!

Be blessed!

Is your cup full?

This is the question of the week.....is your cup full, overflowing, or empty? I have realized the if my cup isn't full then I have nothing to give, things, even the simplest things are a chore, I feel exhausted, I don't care....but when my cup is full....I have passion, vision, excitement, and energy to face the day.

How do you fill up an empty cup?
The first question should probl'y be ....why is it empty, what has caused you to feel empty?

Do you ever stop?
Do you take time to breathe?
Are you so busy, you are exhausted?
Do you work, work, work?
Do you stop and smell the flowers? Enjoy the view?
Are you thankful?
Are you so stressed out that even the slightest thing can push you over the edge?
Do you snap at your spouse, your children for no reason?


If this sounds like you I would think that you are an empty cup.

BUT there is hope........

God wants us to be a full cup ...overflowing cup....

How do you do that....

I think that it is very important to take time to stop and breathe,
I painted a picture once of an bird/ eagle and as I painted it I saw myself flying above the clouds, above the mountains, above the the busyness and it was so quiet as I soared through the air, not worried about anything but just breathing, soaking in the calm refreshing wind...

Anyhow I think that one way to begin to fill up our cup is
.... taking time for yourself, stop being so busy and do something just for you. Your favorite thing, something that makes you come alive!
.... getting special friend time....spending time with your friends that encourage you, build you up, support you, the ones that listen and love you for you.
.... go somewhere where people can pour into you....last weekend we went to a leaders conference and especially those who are in ministry we give , give , give yet when do we receive from others?
.... go on a holiday
.... spend time talking to God,more importantly spend time listening to God, soak
.... dont allow your mind to dictate you...to make you feel bad if you aren't doing something, guilt trip you etc
.... remember it is okay to say "NO"

Psalm 46:10
Be still and know that I am God

The Message bible says...

10 Attention, all! See the marvels of God!
He plants flowers and trees all over the earth,...

"Step out of the traffic! Take a long,
loving look at me, your High God,
above politics, above everything."

Take the time to smell the flowers, take the time in the busyness to stop and be thankful for what you have, for who you are, for what you are doing....etc

Stop and let God fill you up with his Spirt.....he is the refreshing river of life,so take a drink, he is the breeze that restores your mind, strength, and soul..... so let the refreshing wind flow through you.

Be still, rest, relax, soak, and KNOW THAT HE IS GOD.......he loves you and it is not His plan for you to be empty...He desires you to be full and over flowing...

We can not live life especially such busy lives...we all have different responsiblities and roles .....and we can not do all that we need to do with out good friends and most importantly with out God..

God gives us the strength each minute of the day to do the things we need to do, he gives us wisdom to know when to say no, or say help....

Only through Him can we be overfull.... And in our weakness He is stong....

Lets call out to Him, soak in Him, be thankful, and be still!


Be blessed

thoughts for today

So I have been thinking alot about commitment. I know I am commited to Trevor and my family......they are amazing and I am so blessed.....but what am I committed to? I go to church, there is the kids school, there is friends, youth, .....alot of commitments. But what am I committed to?
Whenever issues come up do I stick around and solve thm or do I run away? Make up an excuse as to why I can not follow through with my commitment.

Well I am saying this now....I am committed to my church, friends, youth etc......

What is commitment?
1. the act of committing.
2. the state of being committed.
3. the act of committing, pledging, or engaging oneself.
4. a pledge or promise; obligation: We have made a commitment to pay our bills on time.
5. engagement; involvement: They have a sincere commitment to religion.


I am committed!

So this kinda goes along with letting my yes be yes!!

The other thing I have been thinking about is when I do something or not do something...I have been thinking..."What would Jesus do?" It really puts things in to perspective.....like for instance...I was in the grocery store the other day and I saw some one I knew and I didnt want to be seen becasue then I would have to talk to them...so I tried to hide and skirted around them quickly.......but you know.....would Jesus have done that? What if I missed an opportunity to be a blessing?

It really is a deep thought...especially when you know you made the wrong descision or wrong action.

Another thought....

is .....the words I love you..... three of the most powerful words in the world...... we all long to hear these 3 simple words....we all want to believe in these three amazing words. These words bring peace, love, joy and happiness, but used wrongly the can kill, destroy, ruin a person. Do you know that we girls so long to hear the words I love you...especially from a father..... Fathers How often do you tell your children, your wife...I love you? These words can build confidence like we have never known or experienced!!
These are deep words........think about them.....do you use them for good? I gaurentee that if you are having a hard time with a relatonship with your father, husband,
teenager....start randomly saying I love you...even in the middle if tense fighting......I garauntee that you will see things change with in the broken relationships we all have.

Its a challenge to you......

Be blessed!