thoughts for today

So I have been thinking alot about commitment. I know I am commited to Trevor and my family......they are amazing and I am so blessed.....but what am I committed to? I go to church, there is the kids school, there is friends, youth, .....alot of commitments. But what am I committed to?
Whenever issues come up do I stick around and solve thm or do I run away? Make up an excuse as to why I can not follow through with my commitment.

Well I am saying this now....I am committed to my church, friends, youth etc......

What is commitment?
1. the act of committing.
2. the state of being committed.
3. the act of committing, pledging, or engaging oneself.
4. a pledge or promise; obligation: We have made a commitment to pay our bills on time.
5. engagement; involvement: They have a sincere commitment to religion.


I am committed!

So this kinda goes along with letting my yes be yes!!

The other thing I have been thinking about is when I do something or not do something...I have been thinking..."What would Jesus do?" It really puts things in to perspective.....like for instance...I was in the grocery store the other day and I saw some one I knew and I didnt want to be seen becasue then I would have to talk to them...so I tried to hide and skirted around them quickly.......but you know.....would Jesus have done that? What if I missed an opportunity to be a blessing?

It really is a deep thought...especially when you know you made the wrong descision or wrong action.

Another thought....

is .....the words I love you..... three of the most powerful words in the world...... we all long to hear these 3 simple words....we all want to believe in these three amazing words. These words bring peace, love, joy and happiness, but used wrongly the can kill, destroy, ruin a person. Do you know that we girls so long to hear the words I love you...especially from a father..... Fathers How often do you tell your children, your wife...I love you? These words can build confidence like we have never known or experienced!!
These are deep words........think about them.....do you use them for good? I gaurentee that if you are having a hard time with a relatonship with your father, husband,
teenager....start randomly saying I love you...even in the middle if tense fighting......I garauntee that you will see things change with in the broken relationships we all have.

Its a challenge to you......

Be blessed!

character adjustments

Well...I have moved, we give the keys away to the old house this week....life is in a new season....

I feel like the last 3 months have been a whirlwind of stress, emotions, havoc, very unsettling... I feel like we have made good descsions and bad descisions. There is consequences to both. I feel like we havent stop and rested, or been still and taken a moment to breathe.

My mind has not stoped to rest, to enjoy, to relax. I feel busy, over stimulated with people and their perspective on my life...what I dont do, or do but dont do right!

Yesterday at Church the message was to choose peace. To beaware of my tongue and what I say.....I can create hell on earth for others and or for myself. which is funny because that was exactly what I had been thinking about this week. I need to create heaven on earth with my tongue. I need to be a blessing, not a curse.

I also have been realising that I dont like confrontation. Like even in the little things such as....we were going to get a pool table and I told the people that we would take it...but have decided not to...but I dont want to tell the people we have changed our minds....I dont want them to be mad at us.
I dont Like people not being happy with me...
I have also been mulling over the thought....may your yea be yea....to stick to what you say...if you give your word then stick to your word. I volunteered at VBS last week..it was for four days.....I did three.....I felt that I needed to fullfill what I said, but I didnt.....
I need to stop and think before I say yes to something....and then go with the consequences what ever they maybe.
But then how does that work with things like the pool table, or a kitchen table that I said we would buy....I dont know...I feel so confused!

There is also the school thing.....we said we would put the kids in Private school, but now dont know what to do? $$$$ wise it would be smarter to put then in public, but we said yes to private...they are expecting us? What to do..

Anuyways this is my life as of now.....It is far from perfect.....I have decided to be honest......I am tired of not being honest that life isnt perfect and I pretending that I have it all together, because I dont....I am sorry for protraying a perfect life.....however I do believe despite our misstakes we can still be positive and give life to ourselves and others...we can learn to create heaven here on earth...but being aware of what we say...we can choose peace!

mansion on a hill

So I told you about the big house in Westwood Plateau...well we got it and move in on the 25 th of August. Yep its so fast but yet it is good, as my parents are returning on the 4th. So now I have to pack.....in one week!! Crazy..but I am so looking forward to the new season of our lives!! This house is 5600 sq feet.....crazy eh!! Actually we for the first while are only going to be using about 4000 sq ft. There is 6 bedrms, 5 bathroom, 3 car garage, a huge deck with an amzing view!! There are three living rms and a media room.....yes I dont think we can use all the space...but it will be fun to have so much space!!

I feel very blessed!! Thank you Lord for our new home!!

You are all welcome to come visit!!
Be Blessed!!!

New Chapeter in Life

Wow so we have sold our house!! IN two weeks! We are still in shock, excited but a bit sad to leave such a great neighborhood.... and our house looks so good!! Well but a new chapter is beginning! The closing dates were for Nov 6 but have now been moved up to Sept 6......crazy....that means I have just over 2 weeks to find a new home, pack and move...all before the kids go back to school!

Well it will all work out!! So we ve been looking for houses...we almost rented a 5600 sq house in Westwood Plateau...it was beautiful....everything we want in a house.....but we have decided not to spend to much $$$ on rent, because we still want to save for another house as well as go on holidays etc....so know we are looking for something less expensive!! I know the perfect home will come! But the wait and the unknown is so wow........ I am so thankful that through all this there is peace and I know that God has everything in control......we just have to trust and wait .....

Be blessed!!

Do you love yourself?

Question of the day...do you love yourself? Is what you are doing right now good for you? Is it loving yourself? Not in a sick way but in a true honest love for yourself. Honoring, respecting myself! taking pride in!!

I just had a conversation with my sister in law...who asked me do I love myself!!! As I am reaching for the second choclate barvarian cream donut....are my actions showing love to myself? Her thoughts are that people who have weight issues whether, overweight or under weight..........deep down there is a self hatred....... So it got me thinking.....do I love myself? I have always considered my self as not much fazes me, I can come accross that I am happy despite my weight or looks......but if I let myself go and think about how I really feel then I get depressed! Like the day I weighed my self and was so shocked that I had gained 15 lbs. I was depressed all day! I can come acrross confident, but deep down am I really? I totally know I have come a very long way with my self esteem, and I am so thankful.....but know I have been thinking how do I lose weight? I am an emotional eater.....if I am bored I eat, if I am stressed I eat, if I am sad or depressed I eat! I also drink tea!!!!!! But now that I am finally admitting this...what do I do?

My sister in law also talked about whether my desire for weight loss shouldnt be a one time goal, but a lifetime change. Rather then do the diet, do the workout,....start asking mysef what do I like to do, what are my passions? Is what I am doing loving myself? So I have decided that instead of a gym membership....I am gonna go golfing more often..I love golfing, and tennis why not play tennis?? Racquet ball is super fun tooo...Lets be creative, lets be fun, lets do what we love to do not what we think we should do...... some people might love the gym, some people might love swimming........let find out what we love to do and do it! Be come more active doing things you were made to do!!

Well I have alot of thoughts I am processing....it will be a different thing to do....but I think I might be on the right track! Another thing in doing this is I might have to do it on my own.....meaning Trev isnt a big tennis fan. we love doing things together...and thats ok........its a change, but it will be good. Keep ya posted on my thoughts .....
be blessed

determination

so my new word is determination......discipline is good, but if you don't have determination you dont have discipline!

So I realized once again my lack of discipline.....this time it is with money......I love to shop. to spend money, to go nuts at pay days.....I am so not frugual! I get such a high if I can buy something on sale....like I bought a shirt, that I havent even worn...for $2.00, but it was a great deal, now it just sits in my closet in a crumpled mess!! I so need help!! Actually we have just started getting help...I am quite excited.....it should save alot of stress!! We go on these spending sprees which are fun, but then we stress out because we spent way to much $$$ and then have to starve untill payday again! Well Lord help us!!!!

I realise that every area of my life is lacking discipline...... how do I change......what do I lack....determination.....

how do I change?
how do you get determination?

In Belize on our honeymoon.....we were staying with this missionary family and when one of the kids were having a bad attitude the conversation between the father abd the child would say " How is you attitude?" "Bad daddy" "What should you do" "Change my attitude" " ok then"
Immediatley they would change their attitude...it was amazing to watch.....

I realize it is like God our Father is saying " How is your attitude?" "How is your discipline going?" " How is your determination going?" Today my answer would be "not good" So my Father would say to me.."What should you do about it?" and my answer is........

I also just had the thought that God is our personal trainer...... we would succeed if we just listen to what He is saying to do!!

Wow my Father...help please.....be my personal trainer.....I choose this day to be a new day! A new way of thinking! A new lifestyle with determination and discipline!! I choose to change.....
If you are reading this then I ask you to help me be accountable to this....ask me how is it going.... I cant do this alone!

Thanks for your support and prayers in this!

Be blessed

long time no blog

Wow l life has been crazy!! Our house is finally finished and looks amazing!!! It goes on the market this week! We are believing it to sell this time! We want to be free financially from it. I love it though and it looks great! It has been such a process, character building, etc

Now this season is done and we have to keep the house clean....it's the best time....to practise my favorite word...discipline!!

I have also been asking God...now what? What Am I to do? What do you want of us? I watch and listen to people who have a vision and are following their passsions and I am envious.....what are my passions? What is my vision? What is my purpose?
In September Shenelle goes to Kindergarten and I have 2.5 days to myself...what Will I do? I know I am going to start working out again.....but what to do?
What am I excited about? What drives me? Motivates me?

So I feel like I am at a crossroad waiting......for our house to sell, for vision, for purpose?

SO my prayer is Lord now what do you want me to do?

welcome to my life again!

be blessed today!

Know that God loves you!